I was up all night with pain that the pain pills didn't help and reflected on dying. I am going to go back through my posts and delete everyone I don't like and that doesn't accurately reflect who I am. I don't want some of this stuff floating around on the internet forever when I die. I don't want to leave behind a legacy of anger and frustration. Numbers don't matter. I have written over 500 posts if you count the ones I eventually got rid of. I have had 11 followers quit since the beginning and one came back.
Frankly, I don't care what other people think and I don't understand my recent attempts at swaying opinion that I know from experience is carved in stone. An exercise in futility and I am angry with myself for getting sucked in to the never ending maelstrom of bullshit.
I don't want to make an issue of this but my blood pressure is a constant issue and I have to stay calm or I will have a stroke or a heart attack and possibly die. I
Ultimately all we have is each other, and we sure treat each other badly.